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Broken But Not Forgotten

 

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She was so bubbly during dinner time. Ate her food so quickly in order to make it on time to church for her usual Wednesday night youth group bible study.  A few hours later when it was over, her mom pulled into the church parking lot to pick her up. She opened the car door to take a seat and immediately her mother noticed that there was something different.  Something heavy in the air. Nothing bubbly about it. Not wanting to be intrusive, her mom casually asked how her night went, to which she answered a short  CeliArt © 2015 @Time2Refuel ™  Mom pressed a bit more to discuss the topic they had studied that night and quickly moved on to ask who she had been “hanging out” with.  The answer was pained, abrupt and disjointed.  Leading her mom to believe that the heavy feeling she felt was not just her imagination but rather in her daughter’s demeanor. Point blank her mom asked, “Are you okay?”
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The truth…she was tired.  Tired of being ignored.  Later on that night she let her mother into the truth of the matter.

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Her bubbly demeanor was burst

Can you relate? What do you do when your teen feels pushed aside, forgotten or left out?  My heart breaks every time I think about what she must have felt.  As an adult I’ve experienced that sensation of being left out, not being able to connect with those that we’d like to be friends with and the pain that goes with it. Imagine how much more devastating to a teenaged girl. I can see how that could happen to me because I was quite shy.  This young girl however is extremely outgoing, involved in her church and always willing to help a hand. All the adults rave about her.  You couldn’t ask for a sweeter girl. So why do kids her age not seek her out or include her. The saddest part is that this girl has been battling this issue quietly for several years now.  She confessed to her mother that she even opened up about it during a bible study one night last year.  She told them she felt left out and how she would really like to feel included, like part of the group.  Do you know that not one girl approached her afterward.  Poor thing was so disillusioned.  It just doesn’t make sense.  If anyone has some insight I’d love to pass it on.

As a parent our first instinct would be to protect our child’s heart.  It’s so easy to get caught up in the hurt which quickly turns into defensive anger.  What do you do when they get angry because they just can’t deal with it anymore?

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Take this opportunity to speak to them about how God wants them to trust Him completely and that sometimes we place too much emphasis on the wrong things.  How they shouldn’t let circumstances change who they are but rather allow God to mold them into who He knows they can be.

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“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.”―

C.S. LewisThe Four Loves

I’m praying for God to heal this girls wounded heart and send her some very special, close friends.  That He in turn stir their hearts to seek her out, forming a bond created by His power. That she not allow anger in but rather cast it out in the name of Jesus and let down her walls in order to truly, freely trust that God is in control. 

Though she may feel broken, she is not forgotten

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Engraved By Christ

Last week as I went on a walk with my son through our neighborhood I pulled out my camera and started taking pictures of everything that caught my eye.  Lots of beautiful trees, flowers and built up piles of fallen leaves. Oh how I love the natural beauty.

As I looked down at the sidewalk something in the cement caught my eye. they were so small that I almost missed them, but there they were. An imprint of a leaf. Several of them actually, leaves no longer there but the imprints remained. How long had they been there? Who knows, could be years.  All I knew was that these leaves had once fallen at this precise place leaving their mark, proving their existence, leaving a lasting impression in stone. So I took a picture of this imprint as it got me thinking of my own.

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What lasting impression will I leave behind?  Years from now will there even be an imprint? Will I have served my Lord well? What I do now, will it find its way into the future? My children’s future? Their children’s children future?

Not for rewards or for empty praises but rather to know I have guided them toward Christ and loved them so well that they will always remember. A love that has been etched into their hearts and burned into the very fabric of their lives.

“But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen”
2 Peter 3:18

To know that those moments I cried in prayer for God’s blessing on their lives came to be, even if while I am no longer here. That through whatever small kindness they have witnessed they have learned of Christ’s love in action.

“The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace”
Numbers 6:24-26

The things that we do matter. How we affect those around us will mean something if we do it with love.

But, the truth is…

We are flawed and the good we do is like filthy rags compared to God’s love.  So I pray… That despite my selfishness, short comings and sinful nature God will choose to use me in preparing a way for them.

“We are all infected and impure with sin. When we display our righteous deeds, they are nothing but filthy rags. Like autumn leaves, we wither and fall, and our sins sweep us away like the wind.”
Isaiah 64:6

Like a leaf etched into stone or names carved onto a tree, I hope to have helped my children carve the name of our Lord Jesus Christ onto their hearts that they might live a lifetime of joy serving our Father.

That the imprint I leave behind be not that of my own, but rather the one engraved by Christ.

How will you leave your imprint?

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God’s Whisper

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So many times I feel out of control

Lost in all that’s going on around me

Those moments when you feel you’re being pulled in all directions

I’m sure you know exactly what I mean

I should be able to keep up

But there are those times that I just can’t focus

I don’t feel like I’m enough

What am I doing?

Why is this happening?

The answer never seems to come

Then unexpectedly

My son asks for a hug

My daughter kisses me

For no apparent reason

They remind me that I’m loved

They make me feel like I’m enough

That’s when I hear it

God’s whisper

When He says

This life is my blessing

These kids are His love

I will hear it

God’s whisper

Will always pull me in

Draw me close

Meet me in the earthquake

Save me from the fire

I will hear it

God’s whisper

In the roughest of patches

To mend and make me new

He will still my storm

With a whisper

God’s gentle whisper

Will see me through

Psalm 107:29

He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the sea were hushed.

1 Kings 19:12

After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper

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You Are More

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Its 5:00 am, the day starts off as usual, trudge my way in a sleepy fog off to start the day.  Wake up kids, get breakfast on the table and those lunch boxes ready to go.  They finally get dressed and show up in the kitchen bleary-eyed, but ready to eat.  The morning starts slow but the quiet brings peace that helps conversation flow.

Though daylight has not reached us we’re on our way to the bus stop as my daughter tells me how she’s worried about her grades or that she doesn’t feel smart enough sometimes.  Asks if I think she’s a good writer or if she’s just fooling herself into thinking she can be one someday.  Her eyes upon me wondering, waiting for encouragement.  She cares what I think.  My child needs me. So I tell her the truth.

I don’t say this just because she is my daughter or solely out of love when I say the certainty of her talent is clear. I point out the beauty in the words she pens, the emotion she invokes and how though difficult a feat, she rises to it. I have no doubt she will one day be that writer she aspires to.  She will do great things and she knows I’m her biggest fan.

Next I drive my son to school. At times these drives can be silent when sleepiness is hard to fight.  But today my son had something on his mind.  He blurted out these words, “I know I’m not normal”.  As you can imagine my mind raced trying to process what he meant.  Quickly worried and even briefly blamed myself.  “Why would you say that?” is what came out of my mouth.  What he said next was nothing I had expected to hear.

“I’m not like other kids.  The other boys think all girls are the same, but I know that’s not true.  They’re all different and special in their own way. I think it’s because you homeschooled me Mom.  And I’m glad for that because I learned from being around you and my sister all the time. I know that’s what God wants me to do”.

I thanked him for telling me that but I have to tell you that he has no idea how wonderful that was to hear.

As a mom you work so hard to do everything you can for your children.  You sacrifice and love unconditionally praying that you won’t mess them up and that they’ll grow up to be beautiful human beings. These are the moments, unexpected conversations of the heart that are like payment in full.

My kids know that I love them but cannot even fathom the amount of love I have for them.  These are the moments I want to remember when I feel like I’m not enough.  When I feel overwhelmed and under-appreciated I need to recall these moments, these words, and their love.

I know that down the line I’ll still make mistakes and doubt myself along the way but I’m thankful for God’s reminders. Letting me know that I don’t have to be perfect and in the scheme of things all is well. God has blessed me with an amazing family to nurture and I am privileged to be loved by them.

Proverbs 31:25-28

25 Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come.
26 She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue.27 She looks well to the ways of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.28 Her children rise up and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her.

I encourage you today to take a moment and know that you are loved.  That there is more to being a mom than preparing lunches, making beds or driving your kids around. That all you do is not in vain, all you are is infinitely more important to your family than any mistake you have ever made.  You are more and love covers all.

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Careful Little Eyes…

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It’s so heart breaking to watch our kids forcibly lose pieces of their innocence before they’re ready.  From magazines, T.V. shows, movies and music, they all seem to be pushing the limits.  Are there even limits anymore?  Kid shows are all about relationship drama these days.  Why are these 11 y.o. even dating?

The music that’s played at school dances for kids in elementary and middle school are full of foul language.  I asked my son what songs were played at the last dance he attended and most of the songs mentioned had foul language.  That is totally inappropriate!  He followed up by saying “they bleep out the bad words in the song but the kids just keep singing and blurt out the words anyways”.  This is what they learn from today’s music. Why is this acceptable?

A while back we purchased some concert tickets and as a thank you gift were given some free subscriptions to various magazines. Sports Illustrated was one of them.  When the magazines arrived my son would normally love reading the articles about the players or events.  Until the day the swimsuit edition arrived. I was shocked to see my son holding the magazine. He brought it to me and said that he didn’t think he should be looking at that.I was horrified to see these basically pornographic images right here in my home.  I was so angry and immediately threw it in the trash.  It’s not about being a prude or self-righteous.  It’s about self-respect.  It’s about honor.

Coincidentally, today I just happened to come across a blog post from Nitty Gritty Love regarding a similar situation, but from the view-point of an 11 y.o. boy and I wanted to share it with you.

AN 11-YEAR-OLD BOY’S OPEN LETTER TO SPORTS ILLUSTRATED

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An 11-Year-Old Boy’s Open Letter to Sports Illustrated

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Romans 12:2

So what are your thoughts on this?

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5 Free or Frugal Family Activities

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Entertaining a family can get quite expensive these days.  We definitely have to get creative sometimes in order to stay on budget. Though a challenging task not impossible.

Here are 5 suggestions on ways to spend quality family time together spending little or no money:

  1. Grab a picnic basket and prepare a few sandwiches and fruits.  Add some tempting sweet treats and drive to the nearest park, lake or beach.  Toss a Frisbee or a football. My kids get a kick out of seeing me climb a tree and yes even roll down a hill right alongside them.
  2. Time to dust off those bicycles or skate boards and hit the road. If you want a change in scenery go to the nearest park or pick a neighborhood you love driving by and bike/skate there instead. Then drop on by Dairy Queen for a BOGO Blizzard, Register here for coupons.
  3. Redbox to the rescue…you can use this promo code for a free rental and choose a flick everyone will enjoy. Free Redbox Code: DVDONME (ongoing)
  4. Visiting model homes has always been a fun outing for us.  Might sound strange to some of you but hey they enjoy themselves and I love going to get decorating ideas. It’s a win, win. The kids love going from room to room.  They especially love exploring with their cousins.
  5. Freebie dinner, yep that’s right I said “freebie”.  I’ve been getting restaurant gift cards from mypoints. If you’ve never heard of it you’re missing out. Check them out at mypoints.com . You’ll thank me later. ツ

Family is important and the kids are growing up way faster than we’d like.  I encourage you all to take advantage of the time you have with your family.

For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Matthew 6:21

I hope you enjoyed this list.  I’d love it if you let me know of any activities you’re doing with your family that are free or frugal. ツ

 

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Letter To The Broken-Hearted Mom

Moms are meant to nurture, that’s how we’re wired.  We care for and guard our kids from all kinds of dangers.  As they grow and face different challenges we teach them how to turn to God during those times. We do our very best to prepare them but can’t possibly cover everything they might come up against…so we pray.

They don’t see our hearts intent, they don’t see how in our eyes they can do nothing to drive us away or how we hurt when they hurt. We just keep loving them the way we do. Then they grow up and are making decisions on their own, fumbling through life as they navigate the world of adulthood.

It’s so difficult to stand back and let them fall, resist the urge to catch them and just watch as they make choices that will lead to no good.  When our words of advice fall on deaf ears because they think they know better. The day they no longer turn to God for guidance because they “don’t need Him”.

Then there are those that are lost to cancer or an unforeseeable accident before they even get a chance to make their own mistakes. These are tough scenarios but some moms are going through them right now. Feeling lost and alone.

Today my mind has been wandering back to this topic and how painfully devastating it must be for any mother to feel these types of loss.  I’m praying that God break my heart for what breaks His and I know that sometimes in the pain it’s difficult to draw close but I encourage you to not lose sight of His promises.

God break my heart for what breaks Yours

Though I don’t know you by name I’m crying along with you and praying that you find solace in Him. My heart goes out to you. I pray that the words in the video below serve you as some form of comfort.